The Value of Self

For many old age now, I have got kept a journal. And for the past twelvemonth or so, I have got been journalling about how I can possibly larn to value myself. Because I didn't, you see. Coming from a traumatic childhood, I never believed I had any value. And Iodine finally began to see that my day-to-day actions were telling me just how small I thought of myself. But I didn't cognize how to change!

So, I began to watch people. People I knew. People I didn't know. People on the street, in the malls, everywhere I was, I watched what people did, how they treated themselves, what picks they made--even little ones! And along with watching people, I began to read about how to value myself. I read that people who value themselves do good picks for their ain lives. They understand how to make things (like imbibing and eating, for example) in moderation. They understand how much they can manage in a day. They understand their work habits, and they take attention of their physical body. They do good nutrient choices. They exercise. They acquire enough rest. I read all this and more than about how a individual acts in their day-to-day life, when they believe they have got value.

As I read all this, I watched people whenever I went out to the promenade or to the park. I saw the smugglers in their athletics gear, running along the pavements or down the street. Why make they run? They run because they care enough about their wellness to desire to maintain their organic structures in good shape. They desire to have got more than energy. Because they value themselves, they run. Amongst other things. Whenever I would travel to the nutrient carnival at the mall, I would watch people. I watched the picks they made in foods. I saw the healthy looking people choosing healthy nutrients in most cases. Why? Because healthy nutrient maintain their organic structures looking and feeling strong. And people who value themselves care enough about themselves to desire to remain healthy and energetic as much as they can.

And me? I believed I had very small value and I treated myself as such. I ate the incorrect things most of the time. I sat on the sofa most of the time. I overworked myself when at work, and then beat out myself up for not being good enough. I stayed up too late, I didn't kip well at night, sometimes I would really bust out on nutrient until I felt ill to my stomach. And other modern times I wouldn't eat at all. I battled dependences because I didn't cognize how to make things in moderation. I didn't cognize what was good for me and what was bad for me. And what's worse, I didn't really care. I was a mess! I looked bad, felt worse, and I hated myself. I lived mostly in 'overwhelm' mode. Why? Because I had NO thought that I was valuable. No 1 had ever told me! It was a atrocious portion of my life, and I'm glad to state with each passing play twenty-four hours Iodine am putting it behind me.

As I read, and as I watched, a few things became clear to me. I began to see that a individual that values themselves makes good things for him/herself. They handle themselves WELL. A foreign conception to me. They cognize who they are, how they feel, and what they need. And they do certain they acquire it. They give themselves ONLY good things! And it would never traverse their heads to mistreat themselves. That would be a foreign conception to THEM!

One more than thing I have got learned about people who value themselves. They handle themselves WITH RESPECT! They are gentle and sort to themselves. Instead of whipping themselves up if something didn't travel as they'd planned (as I would do) they LOVED themselves through it. How could I larn to make this?

I learned to make this with the aid of a very fantastic counselor. She introduced me to my 'inner child'. And she asked me to handle that kid as I would any child--with loving attention and concern. And patience. It was a hard thing to learn. When I began bashing myself over something, I would seek to believe of the child--would I really handle a kid this way? When I saw myself as having an interior kid that needful love and care, I began to change. It took time. tons of time. But it's one manner I have got got learned (and am still learning) that I have value. I am valuable! And I rate to handle myself with love and respect. I also began to talk to that portion of my kid that 'didn't care'. I had to admit her feelings. I had to seek to understand why she didn't care. And I've had to state her that it's important to care!  So very, very slowly the kid in me is learning that it's important to care about self.

It's a procedure I'm calm learning. But slowly I'm beginning dainty myself as if I matter. In my twenty-four hours to twenty-four hours life, that is. Iodine am making better choices. I am loving ego more. I am keeping promises to myself more than often--instead of making and breakage promises like I used to. I am giving myself permission to be happy, and to desire good things for my life. It's been life-altering, truly it has. And I must acknowledge it experiences really, REALLY good to finally get to care.....about ME.

Message From The Divine Pulse

All is not lost, my chap humans, for I am of the Godhead and I wish to inform you that there is a great program afoot and much to rejoice about. Bash not fear for Supreme Being is near, nearer than you may realize. Let there be no more than uncertainty about this. For I have got spoken to you down through the ages, through your great 1s who translated my ideas into words and placed them in books.

Your Book is one such as idea as were many of your ancestors' classical writings, back when I was moved to animate the great 1s of your race. Bash not despair, my delicate ones, for I have got come up to you here to present fantastic news. You are indeed Whole. You are indeed Free. You are indeed Holy. Take these ideas into your bosom and cognize that this is true. For I have got spoken, and I talk only the truth.

There was a time, not so long ago, when you could not hear my words at all; when you thought that all there was to life was survival. You ran with the animals then, unconscious, unaware of My Presence in your circumstances. You were frightened, lost and scared. Many of you experience that manner today – frightened, lost and frightened once again. Your systems of authorities neglect you, your men of science allow you down. No 1 looks to have got replies of any substance. Wars are engaged in for no evident reason, to fend off some "potential" threat. You delve into alcoholic beverage and drugs for relief. You minimize yourselves. You dwell in a state of quiet despair, all the piece forsaking that which could truly put you free – your Self, your Innermost Being – that portion of you that links you to all of life and, to Me, from where you derive your primary sustenance.

I have got not betrayed you. I have got not deserted you. You have got lost and abandoned your Selves. This have been your error, my dear ones, for I, the Supreme Being of Love, would never abandon His seed. I dwell in each and every 1 of you. Some of you can hear Me, most cannot. Some of you can experience Me, most make not. It is you who have got misplaced Me and not the other manner around. I am the truest and most consistent experience in your life. Throughout your history I have got been there, breathing into each and every 1 of you, guiding you and proclaiming your true nature. Sometimes one of you heard Me and told the others, only to have got this forgotten again soon after. Throughout history I have got had to remind you of your true nature and My Presence in it. Here I am once again, making that very same point and hoping that this clip you'll remember.

Would you like to hear the narrative of the Fall? I will share it with you once again. In the beginning there was a void, a huge unknowing, a deficiency of form. The Supreme Being of Love, Who I am, wanted to make an experience of "knowing," an experience of "appreciation," where you, my creations, could recognize yourselves and see yourselves evolve. The inspiration came to do a beingness in My alikeness who would reflect my top qualities, give those word form and make them accessible. And there you were born my particular ones, by Godhead decree. By My word you were brought to life. You were spirit then and only spirit. You had no word form as you cognize it today, only essence. But that kernel was magnificent, enough to do Me very proud. You became fruitful and multiplied because that is a feature with which you were endowed. You created each other then, replenishing and furthering the Godhead flicker through one another.

This initial procedure continued for some clip until one twenty-four hours some of you decided that you wanted more than power, to make and refill yourselves. And so it was granted. The powerfulness to make and reduplicate yourselves was passed over to you exclusively, to utilize wisely I hoped, but to utilize freely nevertheless.

My top gift to you was your freedom. I put you free to make as you would. And you did so honour Me. Then came a clip when some of you came forth and demanded more than power, the powerfulness to command others, the powerfulness to pull strings and to deceive. There was no idea on my portion to widen this to you, but you took it anyway. Your freedom, already granted, justly permitted it.

I was distraught of course, but could only detect since you were free to move as you would. I watched you perpetrate assorted horrors on each other, all in the name of experimentation. I watched you judge and penalize each other in the name of the Good and the Holy. You continued in this mode for a time, unaware of how you were hurting each other and, therefore, your Selves. Then I decided to do "form" from "essence" to travel the experimentation out of the nothingness and widen it into the visible, where Negro spiritual kernel could be manifest. In your world, that word form is human.

This humanity is just a distraction, a plaything if you wish, for you to see and experience your lessons with each other. At some point this essence, which had go form, forgot itself and its origins. All the piece the program carried on as you exercised on each other your assorted experimentations and lessons.

And these are still going on today. Your callousness, your uses and assorted atrociousnesses go on to be perpetrated on each other in the name of learning. But in your custody this procedure have always been about power, for those of you who desire more than and those who desire less. Your appetency for powerfulness have fueled your greed and the desire to be greater than that which created you. This is at the root of your failure to germinate beyond your Earthly circumstances.

That, my dear ones, is the Narrative of the Fall. You were great, you were beautiful and you were expansive in all manner. But in your haste to conquer, or avoid being conquered, you lost your Selves. No substance what you believed you had won, in seeking powerfulness over each other, you had in fact lost. There is never anything to be gained by conquering another because you are all the "same." You are all equal, equal to Me in fact and we are all One.

What intent have all this experimentation served? To learn you about bounds and boundaries, about healthy interaction, about truth and love, about sharing and justness – all your great human precepts, which so many of you go against and handle with disdain. So where makes that leave of absence you now? On the threshold of destruction? Perhaps. On the threshold of discovery? Perhaps also.

I am here reminding you Who you are, Who you Really are. And you are all much more than than you realize. Your experimentation with powerfulness have failed. There is no greater powerfulness than the Self and Its Godhead inheritance. There is no greater truth than that which I offer. There is no greater wages than what takes you back to your Core, your Self, your ain True Nature, and your Godhead right To Be. I plead with you, my dear ones, to awaken to this truth. You are Godhead and you are Eternal. You are of the Ageless Light. Bash not lead on yourselves by believing otherwise. There is no other truth. There is no other reality.

I am the Truth. I am the Way. I am the Path. Find your Selves now. That is your fate and that is your freedom. Choose peace and love and they will take you back to your Core. You must go aware that you are no better than anyone else and no worse. You are what you are, which I, and only I, created in the beginning. No 1 come ups to Heaven but through Me. Go forth and seed yourselves with Love and Truth again. Brand yourselves Whole and you will see the Kingdom of Heaven turn before you. Trust this and nil else.

Go forth in Peace and Love